A year ago today... The sadness of a bureaucrat... But, tomorrow is another day!
Friday, October 5, 2007 at 8:30PM It was the 4th of October 2006. I was dressed in a jacket and tie. Megie was about five and a half months pregnant with Liam, it was just before a week long retreat with my friends Peter Woods, Peter Grassow (above) and Kevin Needham.... A year ago today I graduated with a Doctorate in Theology. You can read more about that week here (look for the past dated 6 October 2006).
So much has changed since then! Most magnificent of all of those changes was the birth of our little miracle, Liam. I can hardly believe that he is almost a year old!
Tonight I celebrate and give thanks for Liam as I end another day of fasting - I have done 48 of these so far, every Friday for children, parents, and those who long to be parents. I do it because God knows the intensity of my gratitude and the sincerity of my intercessory prayer.
But, I am also sad - maybe I'm just hungry and pensive, but I feel sad. I miss Peter Woods - he is preparing for his year long retreat and has long since stopped blogging. I feel like I have lost a good friend. I mourn the fact that next year there will be no Phase 1 center at Plumstead in Cape Town. I wasn't involved in the final move that saw all the students from that District being placed elsewhere, but I feel guilty. Somehow as each year passes my sense of responsibility and culpability grows within the Church. Responsibility, because like most of our Church's leaders I also wish to help to make the Church more faithful so that we can honour God by bringing healing and transformation to the world, but also culpable since I realise how inadequate I am to achieve that, but also because one is seldom untouched by the struggles and mistakes of our Church, my Chuch.
My friend from Malaysia, Sivin, posted the following insightful comment on his blog - it comes from an interview with Brian Mclaren. I wonder if I am being sucked into the bureaucracy, or maybe I am already a bureaucrat, or maybe there is hope that benevolent leadership can help to change the Church and the world, or maybe I am just hopefully naive?
Bureaucracy a gift? The conversation in this post seems to model divergent and convergent thinking …
When the 4th ends the 5th will come... I will go for a run tomorrow and try to figure out who I am, what I should do, and what I should not do...“Whether we like it or not, hierarchy and its sibling command & control, are here to stay. That doesn’t mean that networked organisations and self-organisation are not valuable additions, but they are just that. Additions, not the norm.”
“I think the evidence is showing that hierarchy may be here to stay as a way of irrigating and organization with resources, but command and control have long given way to networked action based on relationships and intimacy. It’s how anything actually gets done, especially in large organizations. Don’t believe me? It’s the principle behind “work to rule” slow downs. Command and control aren’t synonymous with hierarchy - one can organize a resource allocation hierarchically but use distributed leadership to get the work done.”
On Sunday I preach at Alan Storey's Church, Calvary Methodist in Midrand! I always look forward to being there!
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I've just come across this post on Liam's 4th birthday! Of course there are even more changes since this post was originally written.
I eventually left the Methodist Church's training unit (EMMU) and sought secondment working as a minister in the corporate world. I find it challenging and a great blessing to seek to support people in their daily lives, and to influence change in structures and systems that impact society. I am still very much a minister, but my congregation meets from Monday morning to Friday afternoon.
I smiled when I read the closing remarks about going for a run... I don't do that anymore (I had a rather nasty motorcycle accident in February 2008 which put an end to all running). I do, however, cycle... In fact, I cycle a lot! I love it. I have just completed the Wines2Whales 3 day cycling race (12-14 November 2010). It was great.
Liam is healthy and strong. He is such an immeasurable blessing to me. Courtney went through something of an ordeal when she was diagnosed and treated for a brain tumor. But, we have survived that. Praise God!
All is well. Life goes on. I am still Christ's servant. That is enough.